Faint whispers move slowly
through the room.
My world disappears,
ever so softly hastening my heart.
I whimper, tears filling my eyes,
hoping you continue to walk by.
The night is cold -
long does it pain me to grieve.
What cannot be,
is nearing the edge of my mindless drifts.
Walk by.
Come close to me not.
I want to forget.
I must.
The growing needs to be with you.
I am a monster,
created through love,
broken by love.
Apparitions surround my body.
The yearning,
the wanting to be near you.
Let me go,
let my cries in desperation
be heard.
Let the sobs of my loneliness envelop me
into my sleep.
Turn your back to me,
I beg of you,
let my heart rest
in a peaceful sleep.
Rush the seasons past,
years gone.
Commit to me
no more.
Let my lips kiss your love from afar.
My mouth desires
the taste
of your sweetness upon me.
My rage cast aside
to replace
my being
with fear.
Dance upon the clouds.
Look down at me.
See my emblazoned eyes
shed tears
of blood
for you.
Cage my adoration
of helplessness
in your arms.
Hide my hands
in shame.
I know not of these
burns of hate
shown forth from my
heavy sorrow.
Go into my shadows.
Protect me.
Let me lose
the creation
of you.
Let me look
upon myself
and see
only me.