Back to Contests

I Wonder by Arae

for June 2022

I love you now as I loved you then,
Encompassing, devouring ache that knows no bounds,
Endless,
Hungering,
Consuming,
My heart until it is naught but a void left empty,
Barren.

Yet,
Beyond reach you lie,
As you have always lied,
So far, very far away.

And I cannot touch,
I cannot grasp,
Even graze you,
Fingertips reaching
-never reaching-
For something that does not wish to be touched.

Why,
I wonder...
(I question, I ache)
Answer me,
Tell me please.

Fingers once graced my skin,
Lips hungry descent upon my neck, shoulders, spine,
Black scales hot and bright in the sunshine,
Cool waters' mist,
The oasis where we lied and spoke of softer things,
Of Gods and futures and beautiful dreams.

Trapped in veils,
Lost in truth,
Fed you lies,
Why do I even wonder,
Why do I even cry,
When it is I,
Who left you?